Yes, I am a work at home mother by choice. Yes, I am extremely happy with my choice. Nonetheless, I have moments of doubt just like everyone else.
At least I’d had a shower. It could have been worse. But when my (very nice) neighbor stopped by to drop off a pair of gloves her 6 year old son had borrowed when he was here playing in the snow, I couldn’t but help notice her terrific hair, her stylish make-up, and her attractive sweater-jacket.
Then I went to the bathroom to finish drying my hair. I looked at my undryed hair, my make-up-less face (the light makeup usually comes after the hair) and my sweatshirt and a wave of something swept over me. Was it longing? Insecurity? Jealousy? I’m not even sure WHAT it was – I just know that I did some comparing for a moment and I definitely came up short.
Fortunately, it lasted only a moment. The little one gave me a hug. I remembered (again) the many times in the past three weeks of the sub-zero weather at the time that I had counted my blessings at not having to brave the daily elements. And the busy routine of the day kicked in full force, leaving little time for self-pity. Besides, I thought, is THAT why I went to law school? So I could look good? Oh, brother.
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I think as moms in general we seem to put ourselves at the very end of our own To-Do lists.
The funny thing is, I’m sure that mom probably looked at you standing there in all of your WAHM glory and had her own private moment of longing, insecurity, or jealousy.
Mommy guilt… go figure. lol
I am striving to be a work from home mom but still work outside the home at this point.
I’d be very happy to be makeup-less and at home rather than trudging out each day and rushing around. But I hear what you are saying.
I’ve felt like that a few times but then I remember how nice it is to be able to be here for my family when they get home.